date:Monday, August 31, 2009
time:5:52 AM
title:'cuz hearts will break...
lets turn back tyme to saturday, 29 august 2009.
morning i woke up at arnd 7.00am
lol. i had pre-camp trng.
taxi-ed to sku with xin xian[: (as usual)
dhen build tent. xx cooking.
blahh blahh. fast forward tyme~~~
the pasta was nice[:
the trng ends at approximately 2.30 and me and xx chiong-ed home to bathe.
we had to get bak to sku by 3.30 cos we had rod. LOL.
hahas[: we taxi-ed to sku again:D funn leyy[:
the ncc was later than us. Lol. how cann liddat.xD
the sky blue shirt and the baby pink shirt looks uber nice cann!:D
everryone wore different socks[: so cool![:
i sprayed my hand blue cos my gloves disappeared!=x now still got abit of the ink.
zomg. camwhore-d with RIFDI,HAZIQ & DEARH PEI YEE! [:
so nice![: woots. the four of us so high.xD
i liked the night! but it just whozzed past so quickly.):
how saddening. im still thinking about saturday now.
if onlyy tyme could stay still and stop on that very night...
RIFDI!
PEIYEE!
HAZIQ!
SYAFIQ!
ELVIN!
-at least you guys talked to me. unlike th others.
anti-social. whateva lorh. so pek cek cann!
i will miss that faithful night.
monday.31st august2009
its teachers day celebration.
released earlehh today.
didnt go bak prim sku cos lotsa ppl were busy.
so i watched movie with xx and py.
the proposal. super nice.
when i gpot home. the ranting starts.
when will it ever stop?):
mum,dad, get-a-life!
you guys kept saying my results sucked this term.
"i didnt work hard"
"always stay out late"
"results drop so much"
" too skacking"
"ask you help your bro, you dont want, always give excuses"
im typing out what you guys always nagged over the phone.
do you understand me? have you ever spared a thought for me? NO.
im always the one receiving pressure though my resukts were much better off than his.
oh please. this is plain biased-ness. you often say he hopeless cann only rely on me.
my foot! you didnt give him pressure and just a few sweet nothings and your heart melted.
then i get the scoldings and he got the get-aways.
fine lorh. my fault my fault. he SO INNOCENT okayh? happy?
no matter how hard i work, nth chipped into your head,
NOTHING. not my efforts. not my results. not the pressure im facing.
but plain nothing. just your constant so called "for my sake".
for once, mum, dad, stop it.
the 6 slashes on my hand reminds me of the number of times i had to face this, all alone.
and do you both noe the pain? NO,
Labels: no matter how much i tried nothing sunks in nothing was salvaged.
date:Wednesday, August 26, 2009
time:4:11 AM
title:dhere's nothing else i can do.
phew. today was a kewl day i suppose.
had pe early in the morning. played floorball.
FUNN! :D esp, with angela, krystal and joanne chan![:
hahas[: sumpa.
dhenw as mother tongue. had listening comprehension. LOL.
geography i got bak test paper[:
quite happy with the results[:
science miss koh never come.LOL.
kinda slacking period for all of us.(:
today after sku i nth on lorh[:
how sad!D:
today i reached home super early. 3.30 wth.
dhen i do sudoku until i fell asleep=.-
whats wrong with my heart?
its feeling LOST. guess it has lost its sense of direction.
aimlessly walking in the packed market,
i constantly think. constantly thinking of you.
hope my life continues to be filled with many ppl;
i need to wake up.
from my once so called fantasy land.
& i need your help.
Labels: i swear upon the stars with all my heart that there's something called love within me.
date:Tuesday, August 25, 2009
time:9:51 PM
title:cuz when you're not there enough, nothing seems to go right.
today, life's not normal.
when you get all the funneh funneh stressful things encircling around you.
lemme tell you, it totally sucks.
its not fun. nor thrilling.
its just plain shyty.
dang. all the lil lil things in my life are irking me.
freaking hellish lawt.
today i not happy. emo-ed during recess.
gahhhhh; what to do?
i've a shyt life.
after sku have indian thriller. LOL.
intending to modify the steps. and luckily the sec 1s ncc came bak in tyme and dance with us.
if not GG will be so retarded cann! ty ppl[: SAVIOURS![:
i had funn with them. i met new juniors & im proud[:
1. syafiq
2.elvin
3.rivdi
4.hazim
5.haziq
5.wei keong
6.koi heng
7.irwan
8.daniel
9.wei xiang
still have; but i forgotten lerh=s
they cheered me alot better up! [:
ty guys!xD
sexy bf, you're still the nicest guy alright! :D
Labels: it was my mis-interpretation of life.
date:Monday, August 24, 2009
time:6:43 AM
title:cos when no one's dhere to hold you on.
never thot i'd felt this way;
cause ever since it started, it didn;t stop.
i need a lil bit more of a courage.
today i am on my ups and downs.
i had iap. cooked cookies. me with poh yong same grp.
our cookies fantastico; one and onlyy type in the world.
you noe wy> i tell you.
cos it's plain chao ta! when all u taste is the burnt part.
im gonna get food poisoning soon.
lol.
dhen was mother tongue then english and maths,
after sku still got malay.
i didnt sleep during malay today.
i was talkign with my sexy hot bf[:
hahas[: he so nice:D
whoos~ lahh lahh(:
tomorrow hav LSP paper 3; cfm guarantee chop dead.
haiz. how how? who cann save me?
haiz.im ddying. deep down inside.
i've no idea whats becoming of me.
my life is screwed; so screwed.
tml might be a better day cuz my sexy hot bf would be in sku.[:
hahas[: guess nid go prepare test lerh. ciaozxc.[:
Labels: all in all [i love you]
date:Thursday, August 20, 2009
time:6:11 AM
title:die. i want study liao.
zech said he would help mi in my humans and maths and science.
sad for him. i so dumb.(:
in return; i will help him with chinese,LOL.
aiyohhh, term test sure die for me.
awh....life so boring. use comp i dno what to do.
lol. tmd man. aiyohhh.
tml i have training. OMG.
sec2 life gonna end leyy.
omg. i so gonna miss my fwens.
phew. reflecting bak into my life.
i've slacked too much. haiz.
buck up man!i so gonna die lahh/.
tmd,tmd.tmd,tmd,
zomg.
he is so SUPER NICE.
Tyty sexy bf [:
Labels: i love you sexy bf [:
date:Friday, August 14, 2009
time:6:29 AM
title:If life could be a lil more fair...
Many times i tried; many times i cried.
But the countless explanations i'd given you; it doesnt seem to work
gahhh; im losing faith.
losing faith in nobody, but YOU.
Days are getting lesser.
as each day pass; im nearing my death.
i have no confidence, how long we'd last.
it seemed that you didnt care now.
i tried to make things better, u didnt seem to appreciate.
i guess im loosing you,
for maybe we dont belong together.
for maybe you onlyy treated me as your veh good fren.
for maybe you had a crush on elseone.
pls tell me; i wanna noe.
i dont want to find out the trut about things from somebody else.
its hurting; its unfair; its irritating you noe.
when will i noe, when will i feel; a sense of security?
with you around, i guess things are getting worse.
i dont think you feel the same way towards me like you did the other tyme.
so tell me, WHAT'S THE POINT?
Labels: i want i want i really want; to keep what is lasting right over here.
date:Thursday, August 13, 2009
time:9:56 PM
title:it wouldnt be easeyh.
WHATS THE POINT:
-of holding on when no one's there to save you.
-of living life when everything u do is wrong.
-of changing my mind when whateva i say does not work.
-of living through this endless life when im at the brink of death.
-of telling you when you wouldnt be of help.
-of explaining when all i did was wrong.
-of moving on ahead in life when all i worry about is the present.
-of expressing myself; when no one is god damn bloody hell caring?
i wouldnt be alone tonight, if that faithful you havent left in the midst of the darkness.i wouldnt be alone if one day they would ever side with me. i wouldnt be alone if i learn to grow up. i wouldnt be alone if i noe how to express my opinion. I WOULDNT BE, ALONE.
i need help. i need support. i need care. i need concern. im falling. im weak. im breaking down. im drifting away.
it wouldnt be easeyh; for me to cope all these stress; ALONE.
Labels: all i ever requested; was a moment not too late to take back what i say.
date:Wednesday, August 5, 2009
time:6:33 AM
title:
i want:
--TAIWAN!
--HONG KONG
--BEI JING!
--KOREA
--JAPAN
--KOTA TINGI
--NEW ZEALAND
--AUSTRALIA
--SYDNEY
--RUSSIA?
--ITALY
--ARGENTINA
--PARIS
--EUROPE
--EGYPT
--HOKKEIDO
--SWITZERLAND
--JORDAN
--SPAIN
--TAIWAN!
many mnay more! [[:
date:
time:6:31 AM
title:BLOGGER IS FINALLY OKAY-ed!
goddamit! bloody blogger can use liao. LOL.
havent been posting for ages cos of stupid blogger problems.D;
sunday.
i went to cher's wedding. she so chio